James 1:5

This is a continuation from my previous blog, "on a quest for wisdom?" I would like to share with you what I've learned.


A few months ago, my fiance and I decided to spend some time apart. It was a shocker for me, because I did not expect it. We were in the middle of planning our wedding! However, we were
having some problems, and haven't talked to each other for almost a week. Our constant arguments and bickerings drove us apart. Now, after we had parted ways, you can assume that I was devastated, angry, torn, and betrayed. Yes, I was one but not all. I was devastated! I cried my eyes out. But, I was not angry, torn or betrayed. I was excited! I was excited but devastated simultaneously! Why? I was excited because God answered our prayers. John and I would pray together over the phone before we would go to bed. We prayed for each other. We asked God to increase our faith. We asked God to help us grow in areas that we needed to grow. We asked God to transform us, our hearts, and our minds. We asked God to control us. We asked God to turn us into Godly, God-fearing man and woman.

I could have been mad at John. I could have called him a liar. I could have hit him or destroy his car. But I didn't. I was not angry! I was excited. Yes, there was a time when I thought about it. I thought, "He promised me this..." or "He said he wouldn't hurt me...", but I would turn away from that thinking, because that thinking was from the devil. That thinking was from a human point of view.

Remember Matthew 16:21-23.
"From that time on Jesus began to explain to his disciples that he must go to Jerusalem and suffer many things at the hands of the elders, chief priests and teachers of the law, and that he must be killed and on the third day be raised to life.

Peter took him aside and began to rebuke him. "Never, Lord!" he said. "This shall never happen to you!"

Jesus turned and said to Peter, "Get behind me, Satan! You are a stumbling block to me; you do not have in mind the things of God, but the things of men."

I recently realized that it was the devil who was seeping into my mind making me think human things. The devil wanted me to think all these things about what John had promised me. The devil wanted me to be angry towards John! The devil wanted to distract me from what God wanted me to see and learn. But I refused! I knew that the separation John and I are going through is for the glory of God. I refused to let the devil play with my mind. I refused to depend on my human understanding. I refused to lean on my human strength. Therefore, I prayed for wisdom.